That Was A Stressful Moment

Posted on January 3, 2011 by NayBesa

Idc what anyone says. Having a virus on ur laptop is stressful as HELL!!!! Like u don’t know if u have to delete everything and start over or drop some cash to get rid of it. I was will to simply just delete everything and start over bunk that. I’m broke and not paying for all that.
However to my surprise the only thing that happened was the virus was removed and everything else was just fine so u know I was pumped as hell LOL. I was NOT trying to have to redownl load all those damn songs and then I have my pictures smh I would have just been a sad ass cookie. But yes alls well that ends well. I would be even more happy if I would get some sleep…..

*writting on my blackberry*

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update time!!!!

Posted on December 30, 2010 by NayBesa

Sheesh its been forever since I did a post so much has happened since then. But since idk where I left off ill just write what’s on my mind.
First of all since I left my job I have been sooooo happy. I mean I done with all the crazy ex drama and I can finally go on with my life. To be honest I met someone new but I don’t want to get hopes up like I always do so I’m not going to post about him for a little bit. I’m just pumped that something really important to him is communication like really I’m still of dating guys that don’t want to communicate worth sheeit.
Hhmmm what else I moved to a different part of seattle in with my aunty. So its 3 of us now and its cool but I’m deff going to save up some money to get my own shit this women has too many damn rules. And like I always say I’m a free spirit that don’t like rules. Hell I am the damn rule.
Now that I’m 21 I feel like I have finally relaxed a little bit more and that’s good hell I dont even feel the need to drink as much. Its probably because I can drink whenever I want so its no point in getting fucked up anymore. I feel like if u turn 21 and are just getting fucked up all over town u got some growing up to do like really u can drink whenever u want and yet u chose to get fucked up everytime as if u don’t know when u can ever have a sip again… SMH damn shame.
Anywhos I say this everytime but I’m really going to try to start writing more. But this time I need to make sure that I do so because it keeps my thoughts and emotions in check. With that said I’m going to go get a snack and go to bed :)

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my ex is….

Posted on November 1, 2010 by NayBesa

a very small dick… not much else to say lol. over time he has shown me that he’s extremely immature and thats that. nuff said moving on with me life

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he’s gone forever… maybe

Posted on November 1, 2010 by NayBesa

UUUHHHKKK  i swear this always happens to me and only me. how do i meet a guy and the mofo might be moving back home like a month or so after we meet. the guy is n the navy and we’ve already been dealing with the BS of him living 2hrs away and his car being in the shop so he cant see me. then  my phone gets cut off because i dont get enough hours to pay the bill AND NOW THIS SHIT. because my phone is off i had to find out through his facebook page that he might be leaving for good. he kept telling me that there was some bs going on out there but he never wanted to talk about it and im guessing that this is one of the things that was creeping up on him. he was supposed to be going back home for a visit. he was supposed to leave yesterday and come back on the 8th but now he’s saying that he leaves friday….. soooo does that mean that your for sure not coming back??? i mean why else would he need the extra time to go home and visit. ooohh idk maybe to get all his shit and pack. OMG i know i have only known him for a very short amount of time however he connected so fast that its kinda creepy i havent had that since…. uuhhh i think i called him chocolate on here. anywho i havent had a connection like this is soooo long, and it felt good. like idk.. it seems like things have been going down hill with us since my phone got cut off. we used to text allll day and talk for atleast an hr everynight…. but now i have no way to call him unless i use someone elses phone and thats some ish that i just hate doing cause i dont like letting people use my shit.

the only thing that i can do is call him and talk to him about this and see if he really is going home for good and see what happens next. i mean clearly we most likly going to have to call a quits but, who wants to do that. but i mean we dont have a choice because he has no reason to stay out here. its not like we was talking for like 7-10 months and we got some kind of bond to were we just cant part anymore. Continue reading →

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Night Talk: The Ex That Never Grew Up

Posted on October 27, 2010 by NayBesa

i figure ill post these here also. in short they are a story of me and my ex that i thought would be my next however i was clearly mistaken lol Continue reading →

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My life my life… oh Yea did I say MY LIFE

Posted on September 29, 2010 by NayBesa

Goodness where shall I start… hmmmm well since I don’t know ill just ramble LOL. When it comes to my hair I have been natural for almost two months now and my lawd I must say its for sure not easy for me to do because of the time that we live in. I mean natural hair on black women is becoming more excerpted here and there but its going to take something drastic for it to be the norm. But I’m okay with that.
I’m still single even though I recently met someone else who I like to call my navy man. But I still don’t know where that’s going just yet. And as for school I’m working on going back right now. So it’s all in do time. But that was just a small update I’m going to try to update this every night before bed because I deff can’t be doing 5mill page updates ever couple of months. So until next time night night

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8 Early Dating Mistakes That Women Make

Posted on September 28, 2010 by NayBesa

every once in a while i like to post up some dating tips now i know things are always easier said then done [trust cause i be trying to take my own advice] however that doesnt mean these subjects dont need to be addressed. 8 Early Dating Mistakes That Women Make is my two cents from the article posted on Yeah She Said It. pretty much this is all the dumn mistakes that me make before the relationship has even been established. i mean really sometimes its our own fault that these guys think that we are the drama queens that deep down we truly are because she give them too damn much too damn soon. anywho feel free to post in your two cent in the end, with that said get your pens and paper:

1. Talking About Past Relationships

lets be real ladies you be damned if he was always comparing you to the last chick or letting you know that the things your doing is the reason why he rolled out on his last girl, so why do the same to him. i always feel that the past is the past there’s no reason to be telling him every single dreadful moment of why your last relationship didnt work until it ruinous the mood. dont get me wrong if you happen to be in a very vulnerable point in your life fine let him know that but their are other ways of saying that then straight up dropping exs names and telling him how you caught them holding hands at the mall together. thats a bit much.

2. Expecting Too Much Too Soon

please dont be one of those women that right off the bat expect for your man to be doing anything and everything for you as if you’ve been dating for 6months already. at this stage the most that your should expect is dinner and a movie until further notice. dont be dropping on them that your a queen and you need to be treated with this and that respect because at this point in the game if you have to brake that down to him oh so soon then why would you want to be with him anyways… im just saying. Continue reading →

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Just babbling before bed

Posted on August 8, 2010 by NayBesa

I don’t really have much to say but I’m going to try to write before bed more often that way I don’t have to do such big ass life updates. But nuttin much happened to however I’m mad at myself for not cleaning up this damn room it gets worse and worse ever damn day shame I know. But it is what it is ill try again tomarrow. Uuuhhhhhhh yea because it rained all damn day not a damn thing happened so I’m going to bed.

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Its Always The Ugly Niggas

Posted on August 6, 2010 by NayBesa

It never fails its always the ugly niggas that get ass hurt and then talk shit in the end. But now that I think about it its more so the insecure one’s. Cause a nigga with confidants don’t give a fuck cause he always got the next bish waiting on the side lines. Oh well LOL. Its just always interesting how true colors come out in the end.

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Update: “smiles” and others

Posted on August 5, 2010 by NayBesa

Goodness so much is new but yet everything is the same. If that makes any since. Let’s start with my ex. Lets be real they say that people are ur ex for a reason and I must say I’m beginning to see that now. Idk what his problem is but I know that once I was ready to get back with him he was off some I don’t want any titles BS….. o_O????? Excuse me?!? Did I miss something here how dare u bug me for 5yrs until u wear me down and then pull sum shit like this…..u know I’m not talking to him as of now.

Now on to someone that doesn’t make me flare my nose at the thought of his name is ”smiles” from work. He’s so cute idk why but he is. The problem is without his phone we have no contact outside of work so I’m not able to pick his brain and see what his real thoughts are on me. I mean ya we hug and flirt a lot but that’s not enough we need to talk n an environment where people from work can’t play the pop up game. I mean. I’m not saying that we have to go out to dinner or have a movie date (although that would be nice) but I would like to get to know him outside of work very soon. *sighs* but the way things are going who knows when that will be. I mean I guess it’s a good thing because its best to be friend first and then get to know each other so o guess if this works out it will b all good in the end I just gotta wait and not push it.

But that’s all that’s new so I’m bout to take my ass to bed and maybe I will write tomorrow before bed I gotta get back in that habit.

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